I am not sure where I was meant to put this: but here

I am making a post that is going to cover all about the abuse I cop in DoD:s

Their are a number of people that dislike me

I have a nice list

Rade = number 1 big man. Rade causes 90% of my frustration and tears while playing this game. Anything you can think of he has said it to me.

Most of the clan In.Agony= This clan consists of hackers and the leader of this clan is also the main admin of the IAL ladder.

My old clan NFi was in the IAL ladder

We played a war where a clan called Utopia (also hates me and are hacks) decided to start pregnant jokes and telling me I was going to have retarded children and things like that.

I asked Antwar the head admin of the ladder to please do something about it. Nothign was done and he egged it on.

I made a post in disputes asking for the abuse to be looked into and I copped abuse from all other admins and the clan that originally gave me the abuse.

I was dubbed a winger.

Then their is the abuse from my ex clan

I was the leader of a clan called NFi

we started off as a close clan with awesome players.

This turned to hell when an ex member stalked me and broke two of my ribs. It started allot of rumors about me sleeping with him so on so on

This was the first time this year I lost many friends and earnt a few enemy's.

The next was when I found out I was pregnant

I made a post and NFi was fine. I was moving so I was afk for 2 weeks.

I rang the guy that I had left in charge (Major Konig) regularly within these 2 weeks to see how things were going

One day I was notified buy Konig that my clan was dead and they were making another. I was fine with this and offered him the server forums and vent for his new clan but he would have to pay for it, He said he was going to get it all through his friend Nathaniel for cheaper. So i got rid of vent, the server and the forums due to costs, I also removed them from GA and attempted to from IAL so they could make their own ladder teams.

I was informed in the next week that NFi was not dead and that Konig had lied and pissed off on them

NFi died within the next 2 weeks and they all have a huge hate for me and will not talk to me and let me explain

I have copped death threats against me and my baby becuse of this

They all bag me out and say things like this

Nightmare:

@ Ness:
We shouldn't be mad at you. Look at all the hard work you did:
- Wrote a column for IAL
- Let us all in on the going on's in your life
- Recruited players into the clan so you could sleep with them (3x different guys)
- Deleted our a) forums b) vent c) Server
- Worked really hard on clan relations

Thats alot of effort for one person! Well done! <3

@ Everyone else.
If anyone has the right to be angry, its us NFi guys who got royally fucked in the ass by this lady

Then we have the random pub players that just simply do not like girls playing

Deliverance = I have never had a conversation with Del yet he has this massive hate for me, Loves to abuse me all the time and jump into anything he can if it has something to do with putting me down

Their were others that I sorted out myself

I spent 6 mnths talking to Bazza and JeT to be able to get along with them after they made me leave dod.

I left dod for 3 mtns because of this stuff before.

The fact of the matter is it will never stop and I have sadly earnt myself allot of abuse in the community

How? I do not know

I stay away from it, I ignore their abuse and I do not rage

I keep my mouth shut and I take it

I do all I can

I understand if a clan would not want somebody in their clan that also brings along all of this

Especially a clan like OSOK

I ask you to view this from my point of view

I have done nothing to cop all this abuse and I don't take it very well

I know it is only the internet but it is nasty and I do not see how people can talk to other people this way

Wishing I would die

Making best on when I may kill myself

Hoping my baby dies

Calling me a whore, slut, piece of trash

And I take it all, Why? Because I can not bring myself down to their mentality and their lack of feeling's to be able to say these things

Do not look at what they are saying, Look at who they are saying it to

I am not a rager, I am not a nasty person and I would never say the things that they say to me.

I do not like it and I wish it would stop

I do not ask anybody to stick up for me and I wouldn't care if they took the back seat

I do not expect other people to fight my battles

But I also do not expect to be excluded because of others actions towards me

Nobody can ever me accountable for another's actions

I thank you for your time reading this